August 31, 2012 brought a similar set of circumstances. We couldn’t wait to meet our baby, but that tiny heart stopped beating as well.
However, God has His own unique ways of redeeming our sorrow and replacing it with joy.
On August 31, 2013, a year to the day of our second miscarriage, we found out we were pregnant again! I remember immediately grabbing Jenn’s hands as we thanked God for this new life, and asked Him to protect our little baby. We wanted to be excited, but we were scared. For weeks we wondered what our first doctor appointment would be like: will the baby even survive that long? I still remember the rush of emotion and flood of tears when we heard our baby’s heartbeat for the first time!
The next 9 months were brutal for Jenn. Gallbladder pain, back pain, sleepless
nights weeks… It was rough, but we both knew it would be worth the pain in the end (me reminding Jenn of that didn’t always help though!).
Months later, on April 25, 2014, 5 days after Easter and only a few days before his due date, our son, Haddon Graham, was born. God had protected him, kept his heart beating, and allowed us to meet our son!
August 31 is a day of redemption. Joy for sorrow. Laughter for pain. Life for death.
Psalm 30 sums it up so well:
“You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to You and not be silent. Oh Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!”
Today further redeemed August 31 for our family, as we got to stand on stage at Awaken, surrounded by some of our closest friends and family, and dedicate our son back to Jesus. A day that marked such sorrow and loss for us is now marked by joy and thanksgiving.
I’m so thankful for a God who cares about the small details of our lives. And we thank God every day for our kids: our heritage and the arrows in our quiver (Psalm 127).
So, August 31 (8/31) has been redeemed. Romans 8:31 – What shall we say then to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?